Pray Together
10 Jan 2012 Leave a Comment
in Believe, Blessings, born-again, Christian, encourage, encouragement, faith, God, prayer, trust, Uncategorized Tags: agony, bible, human body, pray, prayer, quality time, rest, rest in him, satan, shoulders, sturggle, Trust, weary
It is amazing to me how day after day we can seemingly be blindly stumbling our way through a situation or a season of our life and then someone prays for you…. BAM!! …. the lights come on and you see everything around you so clearly. I read the bible, pray and spends quality time with God, but we all no matter what, seem to get into those places. What I mean by those places is needing someone to step up and stand beside us and Pray for us.
For the last year I have felt so weary. It was like I had gotten to a place when anything happened, I would just flinch regardless. I did everything I could think of to help myself; Prayed more, studied more, I also reach out more. I just could not get the relief I was seeking. When people would pray for me they would pray, let go and enter His rest and when people would speak a word of prophesy they spoke do not be afraid to rest in Him. I promise you I want to scream back….What do you mean!!! I am praying, I am studying, seeking the word, I am sitting before the Lord!!! But I would smile and walk away in my own little world of agony.
Then one morning I woke and I cried out, I am doing all I know to do and this is not working. I am asking Lord, what can I do, what do you want me to do. It turns out that night I had to stop by church, I wasn’t feeling well so few of the ladies prayed for me, this time it was different, I was ready to surrender, I was desperate. I cannot explain the weight lifted off my shoulders, my mind and my heart.
As painful as a season and situations are they have a purpose. I listened to someone explain that when the human body is making muscle, that it actually tears the muscle and in 48 hours it rebuilds it stronger. So in my body to make myself stronger it must tear down to then become stronger. Now I know God Does Not send bad things to us, All bad is from satan. Yet, God will use All. The rest that God has been so lovingly trying to get me to sit in, is that every detail is used to form who I am destine to be. I did know that, but I had not come to the place of trusting Him in that.
Today if you are having a hard time, you are weary, turn to Him and pray as I did. God will see your surrender and will lead your heart and spirit to the relief, the deliverance you need to be free.
That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.
Romans 8:28
Blessings!
Goodbye 2011
31 Dec 2011 Leave a Comment
in Believe, Blessings, encourage, encouragement, faith, God, inspirational, Jesus, scripture, trust Tags: encouragment, encourge, jesus, learning curve, listening to god, seeking god, Trust
I guess I am going to jump in with everybody else and say goodbye to 2011.
Been reading twitter and facebook, half and half on how everybody feels about 2011, but it seems everyone agrees on this…… they are excited and embrace a new year.
For me I cannot say it was either good or bad, but what I can say…. it was a year of many changes. Looking at where I have come and seeking God for were am I going now. At times it seemed hard, but I praise God for His learning curve and His never ending mercies! So yes, I stand in unison with the masses and say 2011….. it’s been real and now I turn, look with Hope and Destiny for the coming year.
In August at a Leadership retreat, this verse above jumped into my heart. We had been assigned to spend specific quiet time listening to God. I had just gotten over a two week nasty cold still not 100%. I had also just sent off the last of my 5 children to college, 7 hours away And the way I had thought it was going to go, had not shown up all wrapped up and ready for me. I am sure everyone else was in a sweet beautiful place that morning, but there I was sitting under this huge tree crying, broken and a bit what up God?? I spoke out,… I just don’t know what to do. The first thing He told me, I was so afraid to be in pain. He asked me to embrace it, to let go and let it do it’s work in me. I had my bible open to Psalms and I noticed the wind had blown it to Ecclesiastes. Then my eye just caught the verse.
On a good day enjoy yourself, on a bad day examine your conscience. God arranges both kinds of days so that we won’t take anything for granted. Stay in touch with both sides. Ecclesiastes 7:14
I read it and started to cry even more. It is ok to have bad days, we grow. It is great to have good days, we smile. Each has a plan, a purpose in our life, they teach us to trust and to be grateful.
My prayer for us both is to embrace both kinds of days and as we enter into 2012, no matter the path and no matter the day we have, we will Trust and be Grateful. Always knowing He is with us guiding, loving and helping us all the way; and Praise God with the learning curve(grace and mercy) we each need!!!
Happy New Year
Blessings and Favor
Words
29 Dec 2011 3 Comments
in angels, Believe, Blessings, Christian, encourage, encouragement, faith, God, inspirational, Jesus, prayer, trust, Uncategorized, word Tags: new outlook, sticks and stones may break my bones
Words, we use them everyday.
Everyday they so easily flow from our mouths, but yet…. do we really hear what we are saying and are we thinking what those words are doing? We as children heard “sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me”. Apparently that was someone trying to make the best of what was happening to them, words do hurt, words do leave marks.
I want to pause here for a moment to look at words spoken carelessly. I can look at this from three different directions. Words that are spoken to me, words I personally say to other and words I speak out over all I do. They each have power and have a lasting effect.
I haven’t written a blog in a long time, in fact since March 29, so 9 month ago was my last post. It all started because of reading the words of another. Because of those words I choose to receive and believe, I stopped even considering to blog, but I heard something that made that shift.
So here I am blogging and honestly, with a whole new outlook and enthusiasm. So I thought it would be appropriate to blog on Words.
I read someone opinion months ago about the foolishness of people blogging, believing that they need to be heard. I thought, I don’t feel I need to be heard, but why do I blog?? Am I doing it for the right reasons or selfish reasons, and because of not having a definitive answer I just stopped altogether. Then I realized I was being robbed of a gift and a blessing. So what if no one reads my blog, I did it and do it as an expression and encouragement, even if it just encourages me. I must trust in the one who gives me all my gifts and to let Him guide my heart and weigh my intention and not listen to words or thought and opinions of other.
I believe it is very important to look how we let words come out of our mouth without even a thought. It makes me think of the time words were said to me that hurt and in turn I said words that hurt back. I let out my words in frustration, trying to defend my feeling of being attacked and also trying to defend myself. That was my defense in thinking I was allowed the freedom to snap back.
This someone said something that more than they knew hurt. Oh, I’m sure they knew I was upset, but not hurt and not as deep as it was. No different than me listening to that person say something about blogging to change my course and action, so to did I let this person do the same to my heart. Words are powerful.
The Word says life and death are in the tongue. What we speak we really believe whether we know it or not. What comes out of us is in us, in our hearts. We are our own preacher. We preach and preach to ourselves everyday. The question is what are we preaching Life or Death.
I encourage you today, don’t let words steal anything from you. Whether from someone else or from your own mouth. This is why Our Father in 
Heaven tells us to stay constantly in the Word, so we see what to say and what to think. To stay on track and not be wounded or wound others with our own careless words. Trust in God and let Him cover all your hurts and all your insecurities, God is there, He is always there for me and He always is there for you.
I’m excited to be back blogging, even if I am the only one reading it, Lol!! I know now I will pray and look for the leading of the Holy Ghost and not by what other have spoken and I will also look to Him to help me let go of each hurtful word spoken, smile knowing I have placed it all in the hands of Jesus. But…. to add to this I believe it is even more important to watch what comes out of my mouth, without even a thought or even worse, words that I speak knowingly.
It is easier for me to pick up when I am speaking word to others I should not, but what I also want to improve on this coming year is speaking the Word of God over my life. To cut out the frequently used, habit forming, common responses.
Like… I love them to death, I feel like I’m going to die, I can’t, This is never going to happen, This is never going to end, You’re killing me, We never have enough money, My car is a piece of Junk…… I can go on and on with things we just speak without even thinking how powerful words are and say then over and over and over and over.
God has angels waiting on us and that is what they want to do, they love to minister and work on our behalf. But, they only understand the 
language of Faith. If we are not speaking Life – Faith, they do not understand and they do not act, they cannot. Yet, we also must remember, just as there are angels around us to help us, there are also fallen angels to take the non-faith words to use against us. They go around looking where they can to kill, steal and destroy. If we are not speaking life, we are speaking death. The power of life and death are in the tongue… as the word says,… Choose Life. I want to choose life and speak the words of Faith, Hope and Love.
Blessings!
What Would Your Shadow Do?
29 Mar 2011 2 Comments
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This month has felt to me really long! Maybe it the weather and the desire for warmer weather. After this long winter I think we all have cabin fever, so ready for Spring Fever! But with me I believe there is more than that..I believe not only am I looking for a climate / season change, but also a spiritual season change.
It makes it hard writing a blog, because I do not want to sound like I am whining and complaining blog after blog, but WOW,…I need more. Have you felt that way? I am trying so to enjoy each moment I am in, live and see all that God has in it for me, both good and bad. Recently a strong desire for more will not let me go. And….maybe that a nice way to say I am growing impatient, I do not know, but I do know I am crying out to my Father!
It just not good enough to just go to church, to give of my time and love to encourage and help. I want more. I want to stretch to a place that I have to be “I know that was God”. Feeling safe is almost annoying now. I want to step out and do more for the Kingdom,…I understand the things I am asking. Pleasantly serving “inside” Church is just not an option for me anymore.
I was at corporate prayer yesterday at church. As I was walking in the front of the sanctuary, back and forth praying, looking down and I saw my shadow. I heard in my spirit. What Would Your Shadow Do? I laughed because it made me think of the Bracelets WWJD. I then thought what does that mean? Was that to mean like Paul when his shadow would heal those it touched? That would certainly would be more and definitely out of the box, beyond exciting! Who would not want to walk in that kind of anointing? I sure would!
I felt very compelled to watch my shadow as I walked back and forth in the front. Because of the lighting and depending where I was in the lighting is how and where my shadow was determined in it’s placement. At one point it was behind me, then it was beside me, then in front of me. As I passed from one light focused in one position, to other focused in another, there at times were two shadows. I did this a few times and said again, “What Would My Shadow Do”? At that point I had no real thought or direction. Laughed it off and changed my thoughts to other prayers.
Felt so impressed by it that I knew my next blog title would be, What Would Your Shadow Do?, yet had no idea why.
I said before I am pressed and really even a bit eager to move to a new place. A new season. Yet the answer was right there in front of me and I did not even see it. Even at the start of this blog I did not see it, have the answer, but here it is; My shadow is telling me a story of the Lord. He is behind me, He is besides me and He is in front of me. Where I stand in His light determines how He uses me and at the times I feel I am alone, I never am, He is right there besides me. Even if I think it only me ( like in the second shadow of me) that he is the me, that is standing besides me. I am what he has created me to be. Seasons turn with no help from me, I just walk and live in the season. Same with spirituals seasons. I walk and live seeking to be all He wants me to be, trusting my footsteps to Him and Him alone.
My shadow is just a reflection of me, just as I hope and live to be a reflection of Jesus Christ. To stand in His light, where it is focus and let him reflect through me to those around me. There is not a wasted moment; boredom, delay, waiting…are not things we care for, but they are the wind, the rain, the sun just as in the natural. All will be apart of the seasons, all having an effect on the earth.
Being impatient is easy! Being patient is trust. I have no clue what the best is, I know what I want and yet again I say how do I know if that is even needed in my life. TRUST. Perfect peace, patience with no anxiety means I know that regardless it’s all under control. 
My shadow will never leave me as long as I am always standing in light. Because of that it is my goal to stay in the shining light of my Father, the focus of His light/His will so I can do the will of my Father. I ask myself now..What Would Your Shadow Do? I would ask my shadow to always remind me by always being there for me to stay in the Light of my Father’s Love. I may be in different places in the focus of His light, but my shadow is Never far away, it always begins at my feet. Just as I Always should begin at my Father’s feet. In doing that I will never be lost, I will never be left and I will always be in the right place at the right time.
I pray you and I stay at His feet and that the truth of prefect timing and all that He has for you and me is at His feet.
Happy Season change where ever you are, both in the natural and in your spiritual walk. March 31 is my 48 
Birthday, so one more change, one I gladly embrace. It like a marker for me, really a year of reward. Another year I have hopefully grown in wisdom, grace, mercy and love. I pray this next year to really watch the obedience of my shadow to the focused light and for me to become as obedient to my Father as my shadow is to that focused light!
Blessings,
Katie
Look we are the Same!!
04 Mar 2011 2 Comments
in art, Believe, Blessings, born-again, Christian, faith, God, inspirational, Jesus, prayer, salvation, Uncategorized Tags: agenda, Jesus Culture
Pretty much what I write is from something I either have walked or I am walking. Today what I am writing is a bit of both. I feel I have been on a very long journey and on that journey I have learned…mainly through actual, costly experience, but as I said I am on a long journey, as we all are and we are here on this earth, so that means we are not finished with the experiences and learning.
A couple of days ago I was listening to a few people talking, what they were saying about God was true, where their emotions were from was real, it was all good! Yet I wanted to say regardless it still was their point of view, from where they are at this moment in time of their lives are standing. I will be turning 48 this month and I can promise you my point of view is Not the same as it was 20 years again and I am wise enough to know in 20 years it will not be either. Areas I am so sure of will be areas I have changes and grown so deep in. Things that seemed so important will be memories forgotten. Things I now remember from 20 years ago are probably not what I thought was so important or what I thought I would remember.
This is the reason God made us All so very different, he is such a wonderful creator. so many shades of colors, tree types, animals. He has shown us over and over he is a God of variety. Many things like color that if you say red, the hundreds levels of different shades that one color can be. With that being said we must be open to all the different ways we each are created to be. How God is working and showing me probably is not the way he is showing you.
Two days later at my church’s corporate Monday prayer the Lord gave me this. I believe it is something we all need to remind ourselves, so we are always looking for the new in God, looking to grown, change all for the Kingdom of God.
Break all personal agendas, Let our agenda be Love. To understand the will of God, wisdom to know, the knowledge to learn it, the perfect understanding to perceive it and most important to move into it. No man has “the answer”. The key— we all together are given by God the ability to unlock the power within ourselves to be what we can, we are to be,….. to be fluid, …..to be moldable, movable. Biggest focus from God is to get us to this place so what he gives, he can do all that he can with it through us, using us to the fullest potential of what we were created to be for him.The question is “what will we do with it”. Will it kill us( to much to handle that we walk away…. like the rich young man) or will we do all we can with it. Letting go, drinking all he has so we can stretch even more. Letting go all of who you are and who you think you are. All so that you breath, see, live through the eyes of Jesus. Jesus’ love and presence, that you behold the Jesus in you, that others see the Jesus on your face, even to the point that you see the reflection of Jesus in your own face. All through letting go and having no agendas.
Made me 
thing of a question a long time ago I was asked from the Lord when I was upset over something I was trying to do, but it wasn’t working out the way I thought, but it did get done.The Lord after all was finished asked this question of me, “when driving to Georgetown what is the best way to go”? Georgetown, Ky was where I was raised, I now live 30 minutes away from there and honestly there are many different ways to get from Lexington to Georgetown. I answered back, “I guess it depends on what side you want to go to or the way you want to go, because there really is not a best way, they are all good”. The Lord then impressed me I was right, there was not a best way, they all get you there, so why fight the how and just lay it down and get to the place I am trying to go. I may feel I know the best way, but I do not, His way is the only way. I need to make sure that I am really hearing him and not letting my own agenda step in without even questioning it.
My point,… we all come in different colors, shapes, backgrounds and places. No one has the exclusive on God. Whether you worship to Hillsong, Southern Gospel, Rap or a even a newer God created sound, it’s all worship if we are singing praises to our King and lifting the name of Jesus. If you wear a suit and I wear blue jeans, flip flops and my hair in a ponytail as long as we have Jesus in our heart’s and we walk in Love. If you go to church in a beautiful church, storefront, apartment, basement, beach, convention center, warehouse,…..as long as you open the Door and invite Jesus in and flow in and by the Holy Ghost. We all need our eyes, ears, minds and hearts open to God’s ever shifting ways. To listen for his whisper telling us “I tell you a new thing, now go…flow….be who I called you to be”.
We have no choice as followers of Jesus Christ than to lay it all down and to be committed. Trying it is not in our creed, but pursuing, dying and being about our Father’s business is.
A dream I had a few years again paints the perfect picture of what I am saying. I was in this barn. I knew we where going to be worshiping God there. Everybody was trying to figure what and how that was going to be done. I was swinging on a rope that was hanging from the ceiling and every time I swung by the two making the calls I would whisper something about Jesus. At that point they just left the barn alone and all these people came in, mostly youth and young adults. They were very different, very dark looking and from the outside had nothing that even spoke we love Jesus. I was not sure what to do. At that moment I noticed a young girl and she pointed at her wrist and she had five different style bracelets on, she said “look we are the same” and I noticed too that we both had the same five bracelets on. So different on the outside, yet just the same on the inside…a child of God.
Search your heart as I am, ask God to reveal things you are not letting go of that he would ask of you to. Then ask him what your agenda is? We all have one, the question is who’s agenda are you serving? Now is the time to ask, now is the time to find out. We all long to hear “well done my good and faith servant”. Now’s the time to ask , now is the time to seek, now is the time to change. Let us all go and change together.
Blessings,
Katie
Oh, it’s only you~
19 Feb 2011 1 Comment
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Honestly…. The last two weeks have been forever long! I would love to blame it on the weather or even things not going the way I had hoped, no I have to take full responsibility….. It has been just ME! My attitude. Become so sick and tired of day after day after day of the same thing. feeling like I push, press, pray, etc, etc, etc,….you get my point. Funny how when we get tired and weary we pullout “the list”. You know the list, where we go through all we have done and why every hearts desires should be pouring through the windows of heaven!
I was on a roll “expressing” my thought to Charlie. Just before he closed his eyes to sleep he said to me “why don’t you be like Smith Wigglesworth the night satan came in his room and he looked over and saw that it was him and all Mr. Wiggleworth said was…Oh, it’s only you“. Then went back to sleep. At that moment my heart was pierced. Like cold water being thrown on me. He just meant it to encourage me, but honestly it opened my eyes to the whining and I can’t do this any more attitude.
It made me see this wonderful change in me, my walk…. I am so grateful, yet I still feel a bit beat up. I still wonder and question how long does this season last? I know I have been learning, going through process after process, all to make me stronger, but also making me feel weaker, I remind myself again, in my weakness He is Strong!
I have been blessed, carried and protected in so many ways and yet I still whine, still asking why and when. It is so hard not to feel that it’s just not fair. How much longer, why must this hurt so much…., but I realize that is All from my perspective and it is whining.
Blame…….there is enough in my heart and around me~ So frustrating, I know, that’s not the way to go or to be, but I’m being honest. I just have to be real with myself and say, I am just sad. I know I have to give it to you, Father! Nothing else I really can do.
Isaiah 45:2
I will go before you and level the mountains [ to make the crooked places straight]; I will break into pieces the doors of bronze and cut asunder the bars of iron.
I need this Lord – I need to see this. Father I cry out to you- Show this to me.
I wrote ALL the above on February 10…. I just typed straight out of my journal.
Then this amazing journey started… I did not see it at the time but today ….February 19…I do!
Yes… I prayed and pushed more, I searched the word, I sang to the Lord, I danced and praised the Lord… everyday, but I also looked back. I started reading story after story on the internet on Smith Wigglesworth and others who I have never heard of. The pain, the struggles, no one and I mean no one was given this Golden Ticket to pass troubles, pain, suffering. Then I was led to a 40 minute message by Elisabeth Elliott. I have no idea when or where it was done, but it just helped me breath again. She spoke on suffering and when things just go horribly wrong. She spoke on her life and the life of her husband that in the late 50′s was brutally killed by the tribesmen they were trying to reach out and show the love of Jesus. You may think it strange that in my frustration and pain, I found comfort in this way. But,… it is the truth of the Gospel and truth sets you free.
Habakkuk 3:17-19
Even if the fig tree does not bloom and the vines have no grapes, even if the olive tree fails to produce and the fields yield no food, even if the sheep pen is empty and the stalls have no cattle- even then, I will be happy with the Lord. I will truly find joy in God, who saves me. The Lord Almighty is my strength. He makes my feet like those of a deer. He makes me walk on the mountains.
You see my circumstance have not changed, but because I chose to cry out and to seek….I found what I really needed, Peace. God has ALL taken care of. It is far more important for me to stay in His arms, in His peace, than an overflowing bank account. If he gave me the overflowing bank account with out me dealing with this attitude and fear, I would be one more person with money, with a bad attitude and fear. Us going through the trials is a wonderful way to run and hold to him even tighter, because He always has out way out. Once we each deal with the stumbling blocks in our lives we are like the old wine skins ready to be poured into without concern of busting from the overflow!
There is a song I love by Kerrie Roberts called No Matter What:
Running back to your promises one more time, Lord that’s all that I can hold on too. I’ve gotta tell you this has taken me by surprise, but nothing surprises you. Before a heart ache can ever touch my life, it has to go through your hands and even though I keep asking why. No matter what I’m goin to love you…I know you can find a way to keep me from the pain, but if not I’ll Trust you..No Matter What.
The word says God is our Stronghold. Stronghold in the Dictionary says: A well-fortified place. If he is our well-fortified place then we must do all to stand in that place at all cost. For those who are Born-Again, we have the Spirit of the living God in us. He has given us all authority and power, but to hang on in the toughest of times with the understanding that; He that is in us, is greater than he that is of this world.
Right now I stand on the mountain with this revelation and knowing good and well it will once again be tested by the kingdom of evil, to try to yet again bring doubt into my heart. I Pray that with each try of darkness I will turn faster and quicker to the truth of what he has shown me. To run to my Father, knowing that nothing can separate me from him. In my pain, trials, suffering I am becoming more and more like Jesus. If there was a way to completely get out of all the trials, pain, suffering then my Father would open the door, but the door was not open for Jesus in that. He even asked his Father if there was any other way, please let’s go that way, but there was not. His pain, His trial, His suffering was with a Plan, with a Purpose. He had to have some question about that….., because he prayed so hard he bled. I believe in that seeking, crying out, looking for the strength in that moment of why, I personally believe God gave him the revelation of peace to go do what his Father wanted. “Not my will, but your will be done”…in that just as us, the situation was not changed, but the peace was given, because he sought his Father.
It is a sobering place, but if we truly want to be like Jesus and be in his presence and hear, “well done my good and faithful servant” two things are clear; understanding in all will not be there, you will need to Trust and there will be trials, pain and suffering, but his Peace and Comfort will always be there for you and the renewing of your strength.
I pray we all Press in, Trust and Run to our Father in all that we do.
Blessing, Katie
Writing on the Wall
03 Feb 2011 1 Comment
It is amazing to me and It has definitely happened more than one time, which actually is not a good thing…… but you know those times that you feel that you should do something or you know God has been pressing on your heart, but you keep saying ….I don’t know what to do. Then you get on the other side of the situation and you think, well I knew that.
I am in that spot today. I knew I needed to do something, because as it is stated, the writing was on the wall.
I have no doubt God gave me my art. I do not however know what His plan is, I thought I did. Or ….maybe you can call this more my idea or interpretation of what I thought God was trying to tell me. Like getting 20% God and me filling in the blanks for the other 80% and in my mind thinking, yeah… that’s what God wants. I have been down so many paths with this at work. Yet, here I am again with a question I have asked before and apparently had a bit more of me in the formula than, God’s true path. In God’s true will, doors open and doors close by his hand and needs no help or input from me. Yes Faith without works is dead, but we must always and completely check with God. Because IF we did miss it, God will always put us back on the right path. If we keep pushing and pushing in a direction we believe right and never go before God and inquire, we just go deeper and deeper into a mess we ourselves have created. God is always there to pull us out of the messes we create and sets us on His path again, but we must come to him.
Four years ago I read in this word in Luke 13:6-9
A man had a fig tree which had been planted in his vineyard; and he came looking for fruit on it and did not find any. And he said to the vineyard-keeper, behold , for three years I have come looking for fruit on this fig tree without finding any. Cut it down! Why does it even use up ground? And he answered and said to him , let it alone, sir, for this year too, until I dig around it and put fertilizer, and if it bears fruit next year, fine: but if not, cut it down.
I feel I can faithfully say I have done that. I have stood by the art as a business for three years and then this last year gave Everything I had to give. It blessed people, but the amount of all that was put back into it; money, time, resources and prayer, was not there to justify it taking/using anymore of all my resources. Please understand,…I love doing the art and would give it away to any and all I believe God is directing me to do. But I cannot say that God put me in a place right now to make this a living, nor a retail/wholesale business. I had to come to that place. The art is great and totally of God,…but this is not it. So as of today I go off as a retail store. I will still have a web page , a blog and a way to get ahold of me, but no more me dragging it in trying to make it become what it is apparently not. There is total freedom in that and yes, I could stop typing and do a little dance! Unfortunately it brings me to…..what do I do now Lord?
I was in a conversation with friends at dinner the other night. They have No idea what they said trigger a wonderful changing moment or truth in stepping over to this place. I mean I had life support all over this . I was calling it Faith… but needed to hear that triggering moment that broken that illusion of what I was trying to hold so tightly too. In the conversation something else was said over me that really I guess I knew was inside me and a direction I have known, but yet have no idea what to do with it. When that was said I thought How in the world do I get myself to do that. The next night at church it just dropped in my spirit…..I do not need to try to be who I already am. The Lord gave me this word for our church:
This is not where you are to be, grab the you, that you are to be. Bring that into the you, you are to be.
I must see myself as God see me. Even if I think at times,”I have no idea what that is”, that is why I continually go before him in my secret place, so he can tell me who I am and go to his word to read who I am to be. With no striving, frustration, impatience or attitude. any one of those to show up and I can know I need to go back to the secret place and the word and hear and read, yet again who I really am.
Back to what I said from the beginning, what is for us, what is our “God path” is not something we force open, it opens to us through our faith, but we must be dialed into G.O.D.! At that point God opens the windows of heaven to us, giving us all wisdom, knowledge and understanding.
Wisdom is a gift God gives us when we ask, we can ask and ask for wisdom and he will gladly give. Knowledge is us taking that wisdom and pursuing what we have been told by God. We have learned all the facts and are doing what we can to apply them. Understanding is when it drops into us, our spirit man and it is not just simple knowledge, but it is a depth so deep that regardless of what people say or do, you know that you know you heard God. There is no “maybe” or “if” in your sentence or your mind.
My wisdom is God gave me this art, my knowledge is to keep pursuing God and his heart for this art, to have my finger tip on God’s pulse so I am in the right place. My understanding is it is not my will, but His will be done and to look into the me I am to be and let God take me to the place he has for this gift.
Blessings,
Katie
This to shall pass
27 Jan 2011 Leave a Comment
in Believe, Christian, Ed Traut, faith, God, inspirational, Jesus, prayer, salvation, scripture, Uncategorized
Pressing and Pushing, not the “fun” part of our Christian walk, yet one of the more important parts. If we do not press and push we do not get through. We do not move to the new levels, new seasons and new blessings.
Hebrews 10:35-39 says in the Message bible:
So don’t throw it all away now. You were sure of yourselves then. It’s still a sure thing! But you need to stick it out, staying with God’s plan so you’ll be there for the promised completion. It won’t be long now, he’s on the way; he’ll show up most any minute. But anyone who is right with me thrives on loyal trust; if he cuts and runs, I won’t be very happy. But we’re not quitters who lose out. Oh, no! We’ll stay with it and survive, trusting all the way.
I personally feel I have been on this journey/path for a long time. In fact my personal picture I have had is, I have floated, swam and hung onto anything in this huge ocean, having that empty feeling of I have no idea where I am going at times. Pray, Believing I am heading towards land. At one point long ago it was a specific piece of land. Now,…. land is land! I just want out of this up and down waved ocean. I want my feet on the ground. Honestly just seeing land would even be highly encouraging! I would swim harder, but at this point extending more energy unless I know seemed foolish to me.
Although a very truthful story and picture I have carried for a long time it is majorly flawed. How I want to say Father I was the one who trusted and believed, yet I know I waver. I don’t want to, but I do! I want to be so brave, so strong. In fact I honestly look to “situations” I can count it all joy, to see my faith muscle grow stronger. Yet,…..once in the middle of it, how I want out, I want the answer. The stretching is too painful. I find now I am weary, that knee jerk reaction, instead of looking at it for what it is. Old feelings just automatically taking over, frustration. Why and how long is this going to be floods my mind. Then I go into “Oh ye of little Faith. After all my ups and downs,…I seem to find air and balance to focus on him. But again I say just as my flawed picture, this journey /path doesn’t have to happen, I let it. I chose to go on the ride. The truth is “it is Finished”, God has seen my end before I ever began, yet I see myself desperate, I let myself stress.
This was one of my most recent rides,… My fourth child, Tanner called from college about thirty minutes from here and while out and about his car would not start, the transmission went out. So turns out this little Faith moment was going to cost 1550.00, 1550.00 I do not have. I truly was trying this time to seek, trust , not to have a moment of seriously Father, something on the car again? This time I did praised, prayed and focused my hope in him. Wish I could tell you I came away with flying colors. No,…. I still had that sick feeling of how are we going to do this. As I was driving away from the mechanic in the car with the new transmission tears rolled down my face, first because God is so awesome and faithful, but also because he had it all the time, He just wanted me to get on board with loyal trust just knowing he had it covered the whole time. The next morning during prayer as I looked back, it was embarrassing to me. I repented yet again for my unbelief. My so little trust, knowing that he cares so much for me that money, a transmission, my moment of doubt was so very covered by my Loving Father. His love is so deep and understanding, how could I doubt one more time? When Prophet Traut was here two weeks ago he said this and it just rang in my spirit. I do not need to pray for more Faith. Jesus said I have the Faith of a mustard seed and that it alone has the power to move a mountain into the sea, but what I need to do is to get rid of my doubt and disbelief. Me stressing is speaking the volumes that I do not Trust God to get me out of this so therefore I must stress to help get it done…. how insane, Lol!
This morning we woke to the news that Tanner cannot get the key out of the ignition, my husband’s car will not start and my bank account is a lower than I thought. Today the reaction was honestly a bit numbing, but then a sweep of peace was just there. Not because I wasn’t stressing or I have it all under control, but because I was not going back to that embarrassing place of not trusting,… God can do it, God has done it and it is finished! How am I going to get out of all this….God that’s all I know right now and that’s all I need to know. By the next time I blog, it will be finished, done and sadly, probably forgotten by me.
This morning also the Lord took me in the word to this, Psalms 34:7
The Angel of the Lord encamps all around those who fear Him and delivers them. In the Message Bible it says it like this, God’s Angel sets up a circle of protection around us while we pray.
I smiled, because every morning while I brush my teeth I read that verse I have it taped to my mirror. It is an old piece of art work from the early 90″s, it’s faded and as far as art not to pretty, but those words are all that matter. This morning I caught myself staring at that word. God wants me to get it, He wants us all to get it. It hit me that the word FEAR just jumped out at me. That’s not the word fear, oh my what am I going to do fear. It is the reverence, to be held in awe, honour God Fear. It made me think, Finally I get it! I honor, hold God in such a reverence place and in such awe that disappointing him I just cannot stand!!! So I Fear more to disappoint my Father in Heaven, than the hold, grip of all the mess around me. I do not want to stand in that place again, so I praise, I worship, I thank and read his word to know the truth of who I am and where I am going…….not what I see, hear or feel.
So all along I have been standing on dry ground, right in the place he has always wanted me to be, I just could not see, because my spiritual eyes were closed, because I let the fear and doubt blind me! Tanner when he was a year old, one day was taking a nap. I could hear he was stirring and starting to cry, so I quietly walked into his room. He was sitting up, eyes closed and was doing that slow wake up wining for me to come get him. I was standing right at the rail of the crib looking over at him, yet still with his eyes closed he was waking and wining for me. I thought to myself, little man just open your eyes… I am standing right here. All you need to do is open your eyes and see I am here. I am standing ready to pick you right up and hold you in my arms. At that moment the lord spoke to me,…Katie I am standing right before you just open your eyes and reach to me and I will pick you up in my loving arms. I started to silently cry. At that moment Tanner opens his eyes and with the biggest smile reached with his arms to me. I hugged him with everything I had inside me.
Today I thank God I have opened my eyes, put the biggest smile on my face and thrown my arms high to my Father to give him the biggest hug I have in me. Let him do the same for you Today…no mattter where you are sitting, lift your arms to your Daddy.
Blessings,
Katie
Beautiful, Colorful Process
18 Jan 2011 2 Comments
in Blessings, Christian, faith, God, inspirational, Jesus, prayer
This weekend at my church, we had the most amazing time. In fact it is the fullest I have been in the spirit in a long time. The greatest joy of it is, I was not the only one who walked away feeling this way……..Everybody who was there did too! I mean so full that on Monday morning I just wasn’t even sure where or how to file all that had gone on in the spirit realm. Yes, there were many prophesies and I will get back to that, but it was deep praise and worship. The messages that was spoke on was things I have heard before, but this time whether it was a new way to look at it or that because of the deeper Praise and Worship my heart was able to hear it and let it grow in new places that once was empty; because of my pride…,my I’m going to do it my way….. or my not bothering to spend the precious time with my Father to grow even deeper with him. Before you say “Well that really great Katie, but I do not walk in pride and I choose to do it God’s way and I read the word and I pray everyday”. I can say to you,……………………. I thought so too~
Wherever you are standing in God there is more for you, hence the word saying the “Deep calling the Deep”. There is ALWAYS a deeper…!! No one arrives here on earth, I know that, but sometimes we forget there is a deeper. But God in His wonderful Loving way is always there waiting for us, wooing us to join Him! He has such adventures for us, but we must be willing to let go and let him have His way.
I wrote this in my journal:
I seek You to know what I need to let go of,……How “I” need to let go and mold into the me, You need me to be for You.
The word clearly tells us, He is the potter and we are the clay, Yet,….we think we have a voice, an opinion, even a vote, we don’t. Well, that’s about half-true, because God gives us free will and in that free will God will let us choose. We can die of ourselves or we can pick up, vote, have our way, have our voice. In doing that we take His hands off and out of what we are doing, at the time it seems like the best thing, having the control. Soon we find in the end it was not. In giving all to God, dying, no vote, no say, Yes we lose control of it. The greatest news is His hand is on it and He directs it. At times it may seem painful, but in the end “We Win”
Back to the prophesies, many sweet and encouraging things were said. One thing that was said to me had me thinking this morning. That I would yet again go through a molding process. YEA!!…sarcasim, Lol!! No, but really it made me think of this, God is so wonderful, in taking something that is broken or even a thing that I really do not need, but I think I do and then a situation will come that seemingly heats up my life and then the molding process begins. What I think or feel is killing me is really perfecting me to be the one God sees me to be. It reminds me of a commercial I saw of a children’s product that takes many different pieces of broken crayons and melts them and then re-mold them into new beautiful colorful crayons! I am being molded into a beautiful, colorful instrument for the Kingdom of God…and so are you IF you are willing to go through the molding process.
Take a hold of His hand and let him lead you to the place He made just for you. It may seem so uncomfortable at times, but this will only draw you close to His presences making you closer to Him, stronger and walking with a Beautiful fragrance that will follow and flow everywhere you go. You were made for this, you were made to bless! Step Deeper into your secret place and watch how He makes you into a Beautiful Colorful, Strengthen Warrior for His Kingdom. Then you will go forth and be about your Father’s business in power and strength, Signs and Wonders!
Blessings to you all!
Katie
Direction and 2011
07 Jan 2011 2 Comments
in art, Believe, Blessings, born-again, Christian, God, Jesus, Miracle, prayer, scripture, Uncategorized
The other day my Husband, Charlie made the comment, “you haven’t written a blog in a while”. All I could get out is “yeah, I know” and kept walking. It’s not that I do not like writing, because even though I do not consider myself a writer, I do like writing the blogs. I know I could use the excuse its was Christmas, the new year, getting back into a routine, but that’s not true. Christmas was great, the new year service at my church was the best ever and well my routine is pretty much moved and changed all the time so, I have learned to just go with the flow. SO, why a month since I have last written? Well,…because I am totally and completely ready for a change and that moment I have been seeking and praying for. It has almost consumed me. I get up in the morning and all through the day, I read the bible, pray and seek God in conversation of what do I need to do. What can I do and please I really hope your answer is not “wait upon the Lord”!
A few months ago I was at our monthly downpour service at my church Bethel Harvest Church. It was a moment I will never forget. although I have had the Lord in prayer speak this to my heart and had it confirmed in things other in passing would say to me, but not as powerful to me as that night at BHC. The ministering time was just so powerful. I am an intercessor at church so I stand and pray for all that come to be prayed for. This particular night people were coming up 
specifically requesting their prayer needs. Once all the people coming forward from the body had been prayed for I decided to have prayer. I wanted specific prayer for and about my artwork. Pastor leaned over to hear the request and I got out “I want prayer for the art, my art and the direction to go”.
As soon as that left my mouth Pastor just started speaking a very powerful word. The first few words literally shocked me and within a few seconds the anointing was so strong I fell out under the anointing. My mind raced because what he first said I had been running from. The rest of it I missed, thinking so hard on all he first said. Later I had emailed my Pastor and told him I know he gave many words , but does he have any recall on what all he said because I did not retain. His email back so blessed me.
Just as God’s direction to me that art was second and ministering was first, was what was spoke over me. That if I seek to minister that miracles, signs and wonders and provisions would follow.
Do not get me wrong I love doing art , but flowing in the gift of prophesy and watching someone countenance change because of the word to them from God is beyond amazing. I had been to Belgium and there the Lord was so strong using me in the gift of prophesy, that I was honestly amazed. I had an opportunity to continue with a man of God and minister, but I felt a tug I need to be obedient to the Pastor God had place me under. It was a hard decision, and because of that decision I lost the friendship of that man of God. But,….I knew letting all that die and being under the man of God , God had placed me under; to learn, grow and become a strong, confident woman of God. All that so I could be used in ministering, but after going through God’s process for me.
I stand amazed how I see God reopening the doors now in this area. Do I know what to do with the art yet?,..No. In the gift of art I have been blessed with I understand that it is anointed and it is the anointed Word of God that will bring freedom. I have been seeking how God can use the my art more as a tool of ministry, rather than just simple retail sales. I still am seeking His wisdom and direction.
Which brings me back to why I have not written a new blog, I want his answer /direction so bad it seems everything is falling to the side! Honestly I cannot believe I am being so transparent. Yet,..I have nothing to hide and I want only what God has for me and if anything I am going through can help someone else in the same place as me I am willing to be totally open. I appreciate your prayers for wisdom and direction for what direction to go with my art. My heart desire is God’s hearts desire in this. I pray for the wisdom and direction and for me to just know where to minster, what to say and how to make a difference in God’s Kingdom.
It’s 2011 new doors, new hopes, new horizons!!! I will not be defeated and I will not hold to anything I am to release. Yet I cling and grab all that God has for me…… I pray all the same Blessings over you this year. Letting go of what needs to be let go of and reaching for what need to be. Plus knowing regardless of how I feel or what is going on in my life, to stand strong and grow stronger for the Kingdom!
The night I started writing this blog ( which took me threes days to write..not my norm ), we had another downpour service. Pastor had anyone who wanted him to pray over them to see themselves as God see them. God directed my Pastor to speak over each person who came up the call over their life. He spoke to me ”prophesy received, divine manifestations seen”. All I can think of now is, I want a divine encounter now with you Jesus!
This morning as I was studying the word these verses popped out at me.
1Thes. 1:5 For our gospel did not come to you in word only, but also in power………
Mark 16:20 And they went out and preached everywhere, the Lord working with them and confirming, the word through the accompanying signs.
I now look to the Lord to open great and effectual doors for me to do all I need to do for His kingdom, if the art is a part of that great, if not then that will be fine too. I pray for each of you that reads this that you press in to your gift. To be the Jesus to the ones around you, speaking the word of truth with signs and wonders following! That you step into that place that was made just for you. To stay at His feet, to listen to his heart beat. Making Jesus the most important thing in your life! That’s my prayer for you!
Happy (late) New Year! Blessings, Favor and Spiritual insight I speak over you in this new year!
Blessings,
Katie
